Lastest.Updates
Wednesday, April 28, 2010.
Life.. how many times do you want me to lie to myself that everything you have for me is the best for me? since O levels, to getting into poly and then into my course.. umpteen times i've told myself that you've given me the best i can get, even though i dont want it, i still accepted it. but this time i really couldnt take it anymore. on my way home from school, i told myself that this's nothing to be emotional about, nothing to be angered about. now im still upset. why did you make me different, no matter how prepared i am, still couldnt get what i wanted. then you'd throw the rest of the unwanted to me. always tried to think it in another way to cheer myself up, accept the ugly truth. but it has been months, years.. if you aint tired, im exhausted alr. you made me feel that no matter how hard i try. the results would be the same failure. i really need to and want to string back myself to prepare for the next challenge you'd give me. do i really have to get used to failing, then you'd stop all this? im sorry but i cant take it anymore. i really need to take a break after so much of lying to myself..dont hang me in mid-air, giving myself a small glimpse of hope and fail me after that. i took a step forward then you'd push me ten steps behind. physically im in the front, mentally im nowhere to be found now.. i really hope you arent that unfair. seriously..
signed off @ 9:33 PM
Friday, April 16, 2010.
Orientation
it's my temasek poly's ORIENTATION!
kinda boring though.. only for a few mins, yes mins, i think that the orientation was fun. the rest was so shit. but i know many new friends today, so..yea.
Law&Management 1L01 !
signed off @ 1:08 AM
