one week of tensed up exams are over. which includes, sci prac, english, ss, amaths p1 and o'levels oral. actually, to be honest, all are gonecase. my oral is the worst. worst ever i've ever done. to some extent the picture was very difficult, the conversation is needless to say. had ss ytd and amaths today. i studied first 2 themes for ss yet they come out with the other 3 useless themes. wtf man. amaths wasnt confident of passing. but there's hope in it. that's all. til then.
look at bravo zongwei!
he didnt really stand there to pose for me. haha we're on our way home, walking, we got stuck at some dead end of some private housings. then there was this drain. &we decided to walk thru. all this positions were just zongwei thinking how to climb up after we reach the end. haha. hilarious!
signed off @ 10:58 PM
anyway, if this is what you want, then, that's it. have we ever been true to each others b4? maybe, we were. but not now, recently, this whole 2009. i've always wanted to be the best friend anyone will have. but it comes down to nothing in the end. sorry for losing you, a true, best, favourite, close friend.
signed off @ 9:59 PM
brings back the memories of 2integrity; the days we always rush down during recess/ after school to chop the court to play soccer. haha. so, yea, today's pe was soccer at the street soccer court. weilun today's keeper reminds me of pangyi, where everytime i would just stand beside him, our class best keeper, and defend that square frame together. there's fergus and changsong who's always in the same team &act pro (haha explains wat happened to cs's pikachu nickname). freddy and tzeyong who's always opposite, chiong ftw. edward will be the other team's keeper, imitate's py in a funny way. &yongzhi and jiajie who's sometimes useless, but never fails to bring laughters. fengmao who's out of the situation most of the time. &me, the blunder king. haha.
maybe., i should spend more time,. or 4md should spend more time together. counting down, 73 days more and we're off to ourselves alone. i want to have a feeling of, im missing my 3years ago class 3years later. when we grow older, there's a 4md for us to think of. we should have class lunches, class studies etc.
3years from now, i would want to say,:
today brought back ALOT of my memories of 4modesty... ...
signed off @ 8:56 PM
signed off @ 9:43 PM
my life, my goals, my mistakes
"there's so already many people studying around me, i should start my study plans real soon"
two weeks ago,
"fuck, im getting worried, almost everyone is already miles ahead of me, im still on the same spot wandering. i shall start next week."
a week ago,
"im still here. im worried, but i havent made any actions. i must start next week. MUST."
i've been telling myself these craps for so many weeks, even the start of term 3. yet i've not done anything productive, staying in school to study is just another excuse to finish the work i've not finish that day. everyday, i'm just making end meets, not pushing the line further. till today, im determined to start. TODAY, at this fucked-up moment. my mum talked to me, in that drained out tone when she's mopping the floor &my eyes fixed on this computer.
"it's time to study, lun. you have to study that much. that much, your exams' round the corner, you have not much time to waste, not much till you have to fill everyday to it's brim until you cannot take it anymore, till i feel like tearing up the books until i dont wanna look any white sheets, till i can answer everything the teacher ask until you can never forget anything you've ever read, till you think you've done enough until you are proud of what you've done." -mum-
dont wait till you lose what you've won, friends. study hard. this's the 2nd last month. your fate lies in you hand, if you're just like me, dragging and consoling yourself everyday about how early it is, how easy will 'o' be. dont worry, you're still not late,. let's start together now, let your life be only you and your notes and your books and your brains. after two months, everything will be gone. love yourself, your life.
signed off @ 7:36 PM
FUCK EERON. &this happy national day
signed off @ 3:57 PM
prelims are only a mere 2weeks round the corner. &im just trying to start my revision. my life's so sad man. when all my friends are mid way through revision, im just trying to flip open my textbook. how?. my geog is gone. ss is gone. ehist gone. science gone. only left with both maths and both languages to save myself. die die. and 1month&3weeks to olevels. GG.
was home so late. on the bus ride i was thinking,
:"hmm, this year's ndp fireworks, who should i go watch with?"
after cancelling many 'participants' (cause they wont/dont/cant make it), im left with NONE. thanks for having no friends eeron.
signed off @ 9:45 PM
