what's up with today?
yea tired, emo, disappointment, &everything.
let's talk things out here,
guys, i wasnt angry, piss off with u all lan-ing for 2hours+
i was fine. i even went to parkway alone for my icecream and bubble tea.
i was ok. im someone who's so easy to coax; temper-less.but i was so disappointed.
AREN'T WE FRIENDS? DIDNT WE HAVE A DATE FOR A GOOD LUNCH ALR?
i was sad ya know,
why did u all treat me so coldly after the games. why
ok, let's not say coldly. why u all did not try to talk to me;joke with me; care for me?
we are good friends.
im someone who wont seriously set my temper on you easily.
because i dont dare. im afraid.
u all were my everything. my only friends left.
but tht wasnt the case for you all. u all still had DOZENS of MILLIONS.
losing me seems nothing to you all. but losing y'all means MUCH MORE THAN EVERYTHING.
i may seems restless,dulan-ness, unhappiness, laziness sometimes/somedays.
but u all were still my friends. WHEN DID I EVER F-ING LOSE MY TEMPER.
im someone who nids care and concern. ALOT. im a sensitive being. im humane.
we may not have the same thinking. same mindset.
but i'll try to accomodate with y'guys. im fine with all ur decisions as long as we're doing the same thing together. i dont mind being left out because i know y'all are still there.
i know little bout soccer/dota/good results etc.
but i dont mind listening to y'all talk. it's like .. i nid y'all voice to continue my this f-ing ChungCheng life. this is like how much a tree nids the sunlight, water, nutrients to continue living./ !.
im emo about this. sad about this.
sometimes i feel myself being useless, i useless friend/ i failed friend of yours
i friend that do you even treat as one?
just now when i left at the chicken rice stall, i left because i wanna stop this awkward-ness of me in affecting u. i dont wan to lose my temper on y'all, not showing my f-ing tears to y'all, not trying to force u to care for me. we are friends right.
i swear im seriously not unhappy bout this. although it's kinda waste of my time.
but at least we're spending time 2gther.
i tot we understood each other so much alr. but now, we havent. 2years of friendship.
WE SHOULD SERIOUSLY talk. TALK MORE.
the thing tht seriously hit me off is tht im not being seek after.
y'all didnt even bother to talk to me after that. Wtf?
i dont need a sorry.thankyou. even a 'how's life' could make my day.
ok, tht's all. above's just wat im thinking, wat im feeling.
nevermind&sorry if we're thinking differently.
BUT IM SERIOUSLY FCKING NOT ANGRY.
IM SERIOUS> BUT, CHICKEN RICE SRSLY PISSED ME OFF>
kthxbye.
signed off @ 5:16 PM
