song: YangCong. (it's making me feel worst)

i never dare to be alone.
i hate to be alone.

today just suck. ttly sucks.
sports day isnt that sporty.
i dunno why i'm feeling like shyt now.
so many people fcking fail my day badly.
&sometimes when i have things to say,
i dun really know who to goes to, how to start, what to say.
&the worst is when u're alone. ALONE!

do i have friends?
or issit i dun wanna have friends?
it's so contradicting.
i need someone to talk to, but there's none.
although i still have GJG...

eveyrtime this kinda things happen.
i'll just try to numb myself;
have fun;
forget about everything...
i'll lose my appetite;
lost interest in doing things;
&things dun get any better...
it's been so long,.
but i still think that we're still not that well.

i'm like so not capable in doing everything.
my studies, cca etc.
i failed 2or3 subjects man. FUCK.
this is the 2nd year.
&i'm still not catching up.
is the hard work not enough?
or the cheating work not not there?(sarcasm+irony)
ami a good choir rolemodel?
a good leader? a commited member?
i don't know. it'll show in 2weeks time...

++
went out with GJG after sports day today.
movie cancel, argh.
GJG is really damm funny.
KFC, then marina square, &now home.
*sorry michelle&dawn.
i really dun have the mood to walk out of my house to meet u for dinner.
maybe next time, when i'm ok!